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I'm staying home.

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Lately, a lot of people I know have become militantly individualistic. Individualism is imperative, yes, but there has to be a balance.

I've realized this because I kinda went holy warrior on the individualism thing the past couple of months.

The 'I' is important, yes, but not if it blinds you to things. Once you start being your own worst enemy, once you start cutting out the world around you - that's no good. I suppose its a paradigm - yourself as the only truth worth knowing, but its a paradigm that has made me unhappy the past few months. Unless you turn into like the Swiss family Robinson, except on purpose, there's no way that that paradigm can sustain itself without constant friction. And as I well know, excess friction just turns things into the previously mentioned war of attrition. Which is just stupid. Who wants to live life that way?

My personality ,unfortunately, favors engaging with my goddamn society. I'll always have an unparalleled degree of detachment or aloofness, because I need it. I don't really trust people or have faith in them to let too many get too close, and frankly I consider dealing with large numbers of people who try to get close a nuisance that I don't want to put up with. Ouch. But true.

Strange, considering that my name means - close, intimate, someone who is dear to your heart. When I prefer to skip in an out of that exalted region.

Perhaps its just youth.

I'm immature. Avowedly.

But I'm loving every moment.