Stressing and Spazzing

1) 95-99% of immature T cells die while undergoing the maturation and selection process in the Thymus. While that statistic is very sad and discouraging for the T cells that start the process, it gives me hope.

The acceptance rate to residency, especially for Internal Medicine and such things is MUCH more than 1%.

If an immature T Cell (or people that get accepted to IIT or IIM) can do it - maybe I too will have my chance.

2) Salmon. They swim upstream to their birthplace to start their families - or lay millions of eggs - whichever sounds more poetic to you. Also, their sperm has the precursor of a pretty kickass antidote to heparin, protamine sulfate. Talk about multitasking.

I feel like those Salmon. Swimming upstream to the country of my birth to kickstart a new life. Or a pilgrim. In other words, an immigrant.

I've labelled myself, now I shall go back to lonely studying.

Sigh.

Well, if nothing works out. I can sit under a tree. I like nature. Maybe I'll have an Isaac Newton moment or something. Make my millions.

Shit.

But you can't patent a thing like gravity. Or can you?

The commercialization of the laws of nature. Every time something falls, I make a profit (if I were Newton). The Schaudenfreude millionaire.

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I really really really REALLY need to get out :-P

Go With the Gut

"The flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and most beautiful of them all"

- Mulan

Let's hope that the skinny old emperor from Mulan was right.

I've been so stupid.

Time to go with the gut.

No one is going to live my life for me - and I won't let them, so why should I live my life for them? That isn't respect.

- The Girl Who isn't Nearly As Grown Up As She Thinks