I think I have lost the ability to express myself to anybody other than me myself and I.
These days there is a considerable gap between what I actually say and what I intend to.
But thats always been the problem with me, bringing to life ideas that seem to plague me.
Does anyone read this blog? Or is it just another place where I think aloud?
If you are out there, give me a shout.
9.1.08
6.11.07
26 Days
O crap. 26 or so days. I don't know exactly because I'm too scared to count. I'm going home tommorow. What the hell am I doing?
And whats even more awesome is that I really don't give a damn anymore. All I want to be is gone from this place forever.
And whats even more awesome is that I really don't give a damn anymore. All I want to be is gone from this place forever.
1.10.07
Music makes you Lose Control
I am loving this weekend
Currently rediscovering the genius of John Mayer........
:)
Otherwise, some things that I've been thinking:
1. All you really need to be happy is to do exactly what you want - like Camus said "What is happiness but the simple harmony between man and his life" - and I'm just going to continue rambling because its almost 2 am and there is no one in my hallway to come knock on my door and say "lets watch another horrible movie for the sake of saving ourselves from boredom" so I can keep rambling endlessly because theres no one to stop me! I love it. Of course, its good to see people once in a while - i don't want to turn into a total hermit, but I think thats the general idea.
2. So why do you really need other people? I mean, other than my family and a few close friends the only purpose everyone else serves is - god I don't even know. Well anyway, its easier this way. Simplification is the key to everything.
3. I've never been lonely or homesick when I'm literally all alone. Case in point (or whatever the phrase is): I'm sitting here, its 2 AM - Supriya, the only other person in my hall is fast asleep - the rest of the girls are all at home. I'm not at home in Bangalore, but somehow I'm still pretty satisfied. There are days when I've got 5 people in my room and I can't shake the feeling of being completely alone in the world. Irony? Undeniably. Hmm....must think about this. Shit! Am I a misanthrope?
4. Why do I insist on scattering big words when I write - they look so out of place, especially since the rest of my writing isnt exactly pulitzer material. Maybe I'm trying to make up for my lack of writing skills by my SAT word primed vocabulary.
5. I'm sleepy
6. I have to lug the guitar and amp back to my room. Ugh...I wish I could just leave it here.
7. I wonder what Rose is doing?
8. I should sleep - I'm craving bagels again - its like the never ending crave....for FOUR YEARS....
9. Butter chicken today was soooo good
10. Tomorrow I need to study.
Ok thats all.
For more of my randomness - and if you know me at all you'll know i'm just being myself - stay tuned.
Arrivederci etc
Currently rediscovering the genius of John Mayer........
:)
Otherwise, some things that I've been thinking:
1. All you really need to be happy is to do exactly what you want - like Camus said "What is happiness but the simple harmony between man and his life" - and I'm just going to continue rambling because its almost 2 am and there is no one in my hallway to come knock on my door and say "lets watch another horrible movie for the sake of saving ourselves from boredom" so I can keep rambling endlessly because theres no one to stop me! I love it. Of course, its good to see people once in a while - i don't want to turn into a total hermit, but I think thats the general idea.
2. So why do you really need other people? I mean, other than my family and a few close friends the only purpose everyone else serves is - god I don't even know. Well anyway, its easier this way. Simplification is the key to everything.
3. I've never been lonely or homesick when I'm literally all alone. Case in point (or whatever the phrase is): I'm sitting here, its 2 AM - Supriya, the only other person in my hall is fast asleep - the rest of the girls are all at home. I'm not at home in Bangalore, but somehow I'm still pretty satisfied. There are days when I've got 5 people in my room and I can't shake the feeling of being completely alone in the world. Irony? Undeniably. Hmm....must think about this. Shit! Am I a misanthrope?
4. Why do I insist on scattering big words when I write - they look so out of place, especially since the rest of my writing isnt exactly pulitzer material. Maybe I'm trying to make up for my lack of writing skills by my SAT word primed vocabulary.
5. I'm sleepy
6. I have to lug the guitar and amp back to my room. Ugh...I wish I could just leave it here.
7. I wonder what Rose is doing?
8. I should sleep - I'm craving bagels again - its like the never ending crave....for FOUR YEARS....
9. Butter chicken today was soooo good
10. Tomorrow I need to study.
Ok thats all.
For more of my randomness - and if you know me at all you'll know i'm just being myself - stay tuned.
Arrivederci etc
29.9.07
Hmmmmm.........
So I'm stuck in hostel for the next 4 days - could be worse. Luckilly, I have so much work to do that hopefully I won't notice the time go by. Chances are that I will though.
I've been bitten by the travel bug - infected chronically is more like it. I would give anything for universities to be over and be off somewhere away from the city and the grime and the busy days and nights. So my list - because if you've been reading my blog you'd know I'm a sucker for lists - of places to go before I finish med school...
1) Pondicherry - went with family but with friends is a whole different experience
2) Kodaikanal
3) Kanchipuram
4) Kalleda
5) Mahabaleshwar
6) Up north somewhere - Kullumanali or something
7) etc etc
Of course there are the fantasy vacations i.e. Santorini but I'm afraid those would have to remain a fantasy for quite some time.
I've been bitten by the travel bug - infected chronically is more like it. I would give anything for universities to be over and be off somewhere away from the city and the grime and the busy days and nights. So my list - because if you've been reading my blog you'd know I'm a sucker for lists - of places to go before I finish med school...
1) Pondicherry - went with family but with friends is a whole different experience
2) Kodaikanal
3) Kanchipuram
4) Kalleda
5) Mahabaleshwar
6) Up north somewhere - Kullumanali or something
7) etc etc
Of course there are the fantasy vacations i.e. Santorini but I'm afraid those would have to remain a fantasy for quite some time.
27.8.07
Home
Home has so much on college.
1) Family - people I can have a halfway intelligent conversation with without expecting too much
2) Good food - Dosa and iddiyapam for dinner is never heard of here
3) Good weather - right now its about ten degrees cooler than Chennai
4) Friends - A lot of people from TISB - in this respect though college is better
5) Soooo much to do - Bangalore = paradise for just walking around and doing nothing
6) Entertainment - My iTunes is here - the most pleasingly eclectic collection of music anywhere and movies on the sometimes working big screen
7) My flesh and blood sister - to annoy and get on her nerves
8) Freedom - to come home after 9 and do pretty much whatever I want
9) Luxury - not to have my ears hurt by hearing incessant flow of Tamil and barely pronounced English
10) Just awesomer all together
3.8.07
Fixation
My new fixation: Not studying and seeing how far I can push it before starting for the exam.
23.5.07
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