5 years since my last post on here and almost 13 years since my first.
Reading those posts from 2007, I really do wonder at how false my memories are of myself at that time of life. A lot is omitted, a fair bit confabulated and the remaining blanks filled in with assumptions.
Since, 13 years ago (age 19) I have graduated medical school in India, completed a residency in Internal Medicine at a large public University Hospital in the US, learned to drive, learned to cook, fallen in love with and married my husband - from the previously much maligned Chennai, worked 2 attending jobs and begun to enjoy one of them, moved 3 states in the US, passed my IM Boards, started the long, hard work of building a relationship with my new family, started the long hard work of healing from losing my grandfathers, learned to live apart from my mother, father, sister and other much loved family members, bought a house AND had a beautiful baby boy.
Holy Shit.
That's a lot. A lot of wonderful, stupendous, fortunate and glad things.
But here I am, back to blogging.
With a smile on my face, I can say...that the Tangent I've been on this time has been - just living life. It's been so painful, so raw, so difficult at times and to be honest - for a little while, I'd lost touch with the things and relationships that brought me joy. But writing here today, I feel like things are exactly where they should be. Even though my life has taken off in a direction I could have NEVER EVER predicted or chosen, I've been remarkably fortunate and enjoyed immense love.
How did I not see this all along?
Thank you. My gratitude is flooding me, this moment. From the place where it had gone to hide. Just, Thank You.
Reading those posts from 2007, I really do wonder at how false my memories are of myself at that time of life. A lot is omitted, a fair bit confabulated and the remaining blanks filled in with assumptions.
Since, 13 years ago (age 19) I have graduated medical school in India, completed a residency in Internal Medicine at a large public University Hospital in the US, learned to drive, learned to cook, fallen in love with and married my husband - from the previously much maligned Chennai, worked 2 attending jobs and begun to enjoy one of them, moved 3 states in the US, passed my IM Boards, started the long, hard work of building a relationship with my new family, started the long hard work of healing from losing my grandfathers, learned to live apart from my mother, father, sister and other much loved family members, bought a house AND had a beautiful baby boy.
Holy Shit.
That's a lot. A lot of wonderful, stupendous, fortunate and glad things.
But here I am, back to blogging.
With a smile on my face, I can say...that the Tangent I've been on this time has been - just living life. It's been so painful, so raw, so difficult at times and to be honest - for a little while, I'd lost touch with the things and relationships that brought me joy. But writing here today, I feel like things are exactly where they should be. Even though my life has taken off in a direction I could have NEVER EVER predicted or chosen, I've been remarkably fortunate and enjoyed immense love.
How did I not see this all along?
Thank you. My gratitude is flooding me, this moment. From the place where it had gone to hide. Just, Thank You.
